i now know the meaning of "red eye." after struggling with getting to sleep for the past week i was up until 5 am last night... half tempted to just stay up for the long haul and hit the gym instead of attempting sleep again. and that's about when i forgot how to count and started seeing little people... that weren't my children. oye! time to sleep. (but as i crawled into bed i found something that was most def NOT chocolate, gah!)

my dreams for the past two nights have involved me being late and nekked. first i was a photographer for a wedding, but i was running around in a towel and getting yelled at by the purple-tie-die-tuxedo-shirt-wearing wedding coordinator, "girl! you have got to get going! snap SNAP" all while COMPETING with 8 other fancy photographers for a spot, as the bride makes her entrance. painful!

then last night's dream: amy shows up to take us to the airport for squam and my house is in complete dissarray as i've forgotten the date. i was crying because all of my clothes were dirty, my husband is frustrated that i'm leaving for 6 days and haven't gone grocery shopping, i forgot to get things printed for vendor night and have nothing to sell, and i'm not ready to go but don't want to miss my chance! again, painful!

i'm hoping that this weekend will bring a sense of normalcy to the sleep schedule and i can tame some of these insecurities by making progress on my to do list. last night's insomnia did lead to the purchase of my moo cards and the purchasing of my own domain (deets to come, i promise) which were both on the to do list, so, yay.

::in other completely unrelated but oh so important news::
picked by a random number generator, jessamyn takes home the gold for this weeks giveaway! of an afternoon together she sweetly said:

oh yay! what a dream of mine...an afternoon with the goodness that is jenica. i think we would simply "be" together. our kids would be running around like wild things, half-clothed, perhaps playing in the mud outside. there would be real life messiness happening...hurt feelings amongst the littles perhaps? poopie diapers to change. but in the middle of the chaos we would create calm...and we would settle into a joyous creative pulse. making things from paper and glue and paint and scraps. we would find wisdom in our conversation and we would most certainly be delighting in some type of delicious snack. good music on...children's laughter...mess and beauty. sigh.what time should i come over? ;)

i can't help but agree. an afternoon with any of you lovelies would surely involve art, mess, children, chaos, joy, and probably a few popsicles.

so come again next week, when surely we will have a giveaway from liz.