i wrestle often with the feeling that i'm just not good enough. that i don't measure up to the expectations of those around me or that i set for myself. and yet, i'm often told that i'm a very confident woman, and really i know this about myself. and so the tormenting wrestling match begins. emotion and expectation putting reason and understanding in a sleeper hold. but amazingly, reason and understanding roll out of it pinning those damned emotions and expectations to the mat!

in the end, it helps me to remember that there is a god who loves me and is watching me with a knowledge of all things. i might not get it all right now, but that's ok, because all i need to do is live each day with love.

i'm beginning to think that the things we struggle with the most, the things that we feel are our weaknesses, are most often our strengths... maybe just unrealized. our potential in these areas is incomprehensible.

and so, when i feel small, i take a quick self evaluation and realize that i'm just being tested. because, i know who i am and she is both loving and loveable. i try to see things in proper perspective.