i'm STILL pregnant
July 29, 2007 at 1:25 AM yes, the rumor is true... the bun in the oven is not fully baked. i so appreciate the out-pouring of love and support that has been offered to me! all the comments have really brightened each day.
it's been interesting to psycho analyse my behavior over the past week since our *close call.* i really had not been anxy to have my baby before last tuesday. but now that she's played peek-a-boo once i'm on super-power watch for any little symptom that my labor could be starting again.
did my water just break???
nope, you just peed your pants a little bit... again...
so it's been a discouraging few days. my mom bought me flowers while she was here which have helped to lift my spirits. but i still find myself moaning more now about my aches and pains then is necessary.
and yet... today all of this emotion hit me. i know, what a surprise, seeing that i'm a huge pregnant woman and all. but i realized just how overwhelmed i've been since G was born. having three kids has seriously kicked my patootie, and here i am bringing numero cuatro into the world? what were we thinking 9 months ago??? how am i going to do it all? do i have enough love to give when i feel like i'm being sucked dry with the plate i have in front of me?
so there it is. half of me CAN NOT POSSIBLY WAIT ONE MORE MINUTE to get this baby out! and the other half, well, we wish we could take another slow year to get the guts up to be a better mama this time.
i spent the whole day today trying to do *good mama* activities with my kids. we hit the library and the aquarium, i tickled F like crazy, spent a good deal of time with G on the toilet, and taught E how to braid. is this pre-birth repentance? will i be able to adjust? could i be more melodramatic??? i'm sure that getting this baby out will help to quell the emotional discord that i am feeling right now. we just need to get her here stat. ;-D
oh yeah, and one funny thing. as we pulled on to the freeway at 4 am that dreadful wednesday of last week we almost got run off the road by a little sports car with the license plate *nsomniac,* cheered my night right up!
Reader Comments (12)
(((HUGS))) to you. At least you know you CAN'T be pregnant FOREVER.
Aw Jenica:)
I have heard from people with more kids than me... Four kids are easier than three. That rhymed! Now, I don't know how true it is because i am still at magic number 3... But lets just say its true k? :)
I cannot wait to see your sweet little babe.
Love you dearie:)
oh sweetie,
you are such an amazing mama!!!
i wish i could reach out and give you a great big (((hug)))...but know that i'm here... kcrilly@gmail.com and offering to be your very own personal cheerleader for as long as you need me ;-)
xo
k
I wish I were closer to help in some way. I'm thinking of you no matter what and I check your blog daily to see your stats! I'm sending good thoughts your way!
I've been checking back obsessively, I mean, periodically, to see if baby H had arrived. Only 13 more days, your little counter says. I hope she comes at just the right time. :)
And can I just compliment you on how beautifully you have, once again, captured the last stages of pregnancy--I got that terrified "I CANT HAVE A BABY YET I'm not ready and things will never be the same" period with both of my girls, oh yeah, and the pee/broken water thing.
Miss you. (And how was the quilting?)
Just last-minute jitters 'cause you know you've got it in you to mother the world!
I feel the same way even though I only have one and two is coming in October. I have a little more time I guess but I too am getting tired of being pregnant. I'm waiting to hear the good news!
I will your cervix open with my cervix opening skills. I don't think I've ever seen someone more pregnant (and adorable, lets just add that shall we? After all, BEING PREGNANT IS FUN!!! RIGHT?!)
I was just there chicky- I totally feel where you're comng from. I started feeling like Danny would never be born, because I was certain I would be pregnant forever (or at least for 2 or so years like an elephant.... which I felt I was as big as).
Chin up momma! Feet sightings are near in your future!
i see from all the comments that you have lots of peeps thinking of you and anticipating numero cuatro! you are an amazing mamma, mamma!
Is it so wrong that I'm a wee bit happy you didn't have a blog baby in my absence?? No, it isn't.
I pee in my pants a little all the time and I have no excuse.
I can't wait for blog baby blog baby BLOG BABEEEE
gosh ... the drama ;-) i can't even imagine how you must have been feeling ... xox