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emotions, just me, saving the world, sunday scribblings what would she say?
October 20, 2007 at 11:49 PM if i was queen of the world, what would i change? i'd like to think that i would tackle world peace or starvation or slavery but really... i decree that we should all find the beauty in ourselves!
i look back on myself as a 17 year old. i had little confidence in my beauty and often tied my self-worth to being liked by a boy. but now i can honestly look back and see how beautiful i was. i was at my PRIME people! and i took it for granted. my tummy was flat, my belly button perfect. everything was still sitting exactly where it *should* be. i wore a size 5. and yet i was constantly worrying about how i looked, what other people might think of me. what could i say to that insecure girl to wake her up to her beauty?
so why can't we as women be happy with who we are, today? we're always seeking to be something more (or often less) than we are right now. in 20 years i will look back on this time of my life and say, "why wasn't i happier? i had so much going for me in my life..." what would the future me say to me now?
all of us age, all of us get wrinkles, stretch marks and extra jiggles. so why hate it? why not embrace ourselves right now as we would if we could go back and tell the 17 year old us, *be happy with what you've got, because you're MORE than beautiful!* what would the future us come back and say to us today?
true beauty is found in every woman's mirror. when you look at your best friend you never seek to find her imperfections, you simply accept her as herself. and yet, when we look at ourselves we seek to find every negativity. we need to be more gentle.
right now i am 25 pounds from *healthy,* i am stretched marked from my chest to my calves, i still have acne, the list could go on... but it won't because i'm choosing to stop. i actually feel more at peace with myself today than i ever have. i feel beautiful, sexy, creative, intelligent, confident... and this list will continue to grow. now when i look in the mirror i try to find my favorite thing about myself in that moment. not in the spirit of narcissism, but to try to find peace with myself.
as i look back at the 17 year old me, how could i convince her of her beauty? and as i think of my future self... what would she say now?
Reader Comments (16)
Oh, Queen Jenica!
Thank you love.
thats a beauriful picture! i love little photographer jenica! ooo boy! haha! but really.. i miss you so dang much. :[ i still haven't seen my newest neice, or e's new hair. :[ :[ :[! but about that other blog, upping e to 1st.. im glad it isn't happening. i realize she is smart, because, if you remember, i was in that same position when i was younger.. and now im back a grade because it was really dang hard. did you ask e about what she wanted to do?? i miss you guys! i pray for you allllll the time! tons of love your way! xoxoxo!
It's strange isn't it? I'm way up there in years and still see friends worrying about some parts not being perfect. Good grief. What's with this obsession with self-perceived body faults? I so agree with you -
I think these thoughts all the time. I hope to instill in my daughter and all the girls whom I encounter that their overriding concern should be rejoicing in who they are, how they feel, how they look. As young girls and young women, we are so stupid to fall into the traps set all around us which encourage us to change our appearance...so they can make a buck. Booooooo!
I want you as queen. May I be your court jester?
Hail to the Queen Jenica. Long live the Queen!
beautiful
xox
amen!!
it took me years to not judge my beauty by what boy i liked thought of it.
*sigh*
beautiful post.....
with love
mccabe x
Now I know better. I am beautiful as it is!
I vote that you post a few old pics so that we can see what you used to look like. I had some major bangs in high school.
this is so true jenica...and it's something i'm working on myself as well...here's to our BEAUTY!
Oh this was a great post! I hate that my happiness is caught up in my appearance...everything else in my laugh is quite good. I'll probably look back at the 32 year old me and say, "but you looked so good, no wrinkles, no gray hair..." We SHOULD enjoy ourselves and our beauty now.
I agree. Sometimes I feel that I am OK with myself, but there are other times when nothing will be good enough. It really does take a lot of hard work, mentally and emotionally, to be OK with yourself right now! What great post!
You are beautiful! This picture is beautiful! Thank you for reminding me that I'm ok, even if I'm not back to pre birth weight. I have two beautiful daughters, and I am a pro at having fun! I learned from the best. ;)
Beautiful, sweet picture!
I know what you mean. I was thinking about that the other day, actually. How I am so hard on myself physically, but one day I will look back and think I was beautiful. Funny how that works.
You are a very beautiful woman!
Very well said.
you make the best queen ever :) i think that we get more beautiful as we age because we learn to see our beauty ... :) and we are all so very beautiful!! xox
Jenica - I have these same thoughts all the time. I was perfect at 17 too and I totally based my self-worth on who liked me and how much.
I'll work on your campaign when you decide to run for queen. You're the best. And you've always been the most beautiful!!!